Variation Venus

So, I’m trying to get my fitness and body fat to a healthy level. I have struggled for the past decade to get to a healthy body fat after having three children. A combination of lack of willpower, burnout from work, home, and childcare responsibilities has made that part of my life a challenging goal to pursue. 

My health is often not a priority when I need to work to pay bills, buy food, and maintain a clean home. So, I take months off due to burnout, trying to get everything done while training myself to eat better. 

But I can successfully say that I have maintained a workout schedule for the past 11 weeks. I use an app called SWEAT Fitness because I needed a structured and affordable workout program designed for postpartum women. I was able to get a discount on a year’s subscription for only $50 USD. 

Am I happy with my progress? Yes and no. 

I’m happy that I’m stronger.

I’m not happy that I’ve made no fat loss progress. My weight and inches are more than it was two months ago.

I know a lot of it is mostly motivation and willpower. I tell myself, “I need to do this to be a proper adult and avoid major health issues due to being overweight.” But I just feel like I’m burned toast after everything I have to accomplish at the end of the day. A typical day is to wake up at 4 a.m., get back home by 7 p.m., have dinner, clean, help with homework, and then go to bed no later than 10 p.m. 

To make the days easier on myself and also to just treat myself to something that is just for me I get food from a restaurant or a quick frozen meal. 

Meal planning in my home is not a fun experience. I have picky eaters in my house and I find myself making four separate meals some days. It’s exhausting and I forget to keep track of what I eat because by then I don’t care. 

So that is the challenge that I am working on just trying to figure out how to eat better without losing my sanity.